Struck me Down

17/06/2015

I weep but no sound

- Mun Chun -

Waiting for the End.

31/12/2013

Waiting for the end to come.

Wishing I have the strength to stand.

This is not what I had planned.

It's out of my control.

-Mun Chun-

Need and Want

05/07/2013

We all have things we want to have, but it is not necessary.

It is not a need.

Lately, I have been looking a lot of things that I want to have.
I am not sure why, maybe I'm one of those people who buy things when they are unhappy?

I just look at things, it makes me think, if dad is here, maybe I can ask for it.

Every time after the window shopping, I feel quite sad because, dad is not here anymore.
And I can't afford to have it.

Why does this happen, I just can't bear it anymore.

I want to celebrate my 21 just like others did.

I just want you back, Dad.

-Mun Chun-

Life

26/06/2013

It's has been a very very long time I have stop posting.

I think, most of my friends know what happened in my life lately.

It happened so sudden, I really felt so lost lately.

Sometimes in the middle of the night when I go downstairs, he will be there.
Opening the gate, coming in. And he will ask, Why aren't you asleep yet?
I will probably answer him "soon" most of the time.

It felt like a piece of my heart is missing, empty, void. Unable to fill it up, replace it.

Sometimes, I really hope that when I go down, he will be there sitting on the sofa, watching tv.
But he always fall asleep while the tv is still on. And I will wake him up.
Ask him to go to the room to sleep.

They say, people forget 90% of their dreams. When I wake, I almost forget everything.
But I force myself to think back the dream I had two weeks ago.

We were all in the living room, one family together.

 Although it's not special but we were all chatting and laughing together.
It felt so real, that when I wake, I thought he was still downstairs waiting for me to go down.

To go out for lunch together.

My heart felt so heartbroken, when I realize, it is all just a dream.

2 weeks ago when it's Father's Day.
Previously, I never bought any gifts, or anything specials to him before.

I really regret that I never expressed my love towards him before.

I just want him to know that, I really love him.

I know, that he knows.

And I know that, he loves me a lot although he always scold me.
Hey, which dad don't scold their sons ?

My friends, tell your dad that you love him although they always scold you.
They just wants the best for you.

On the last day when he is still conscious in the hospital, I hold his hand,

he tightened his hand, holding mine.
Felt like he was giving me comfort, telling me that everything will be okay.

I never felt so scared in my life before.

My hands kept shaking like it's not my hand.

I tried very hard to cheer myself up, to be strong.

But not tonight, I just want to.. not try hard.

He is a man with greatness.

If his live is longer, he will be able to achieve even more.
Easy life for maybe even the next family's generations.

As he is planing to do so much more business.

He is a man with everything.

He is successful, a big project, finally a Main Contractor.

Went to few country, the latest one, Australia.

A beautiful family, a gorgeous wife, a son, and a daughter.

Most important of all, I'm proud to be your son.

Things that you have not done, I will do it.

Dad, I hope that you had a happy life.

I always planned to buy you a massage chair when I grow up.

To be a good son, taking mom and dad out for breakfast.

Watching dad grow even older, living happily together.

But all these can't be accomplished anymore.

Hope that dad passed away peacefully, rest in peace.

I will tell your story to my sons, and so on to the next generations.

I remember when I am 13 years old, I wrote my dad as my idol.

Dad, you're my hero.

I Love You Dad, Goodnight.

Confession

19/01/2013

Its my friend's wedding dinner today.

Congratulations to my friend and wish them to have a happy ever after =)

But then I was kinda unhappy that I am not invited.

Feel like my friends are getting further away from me.

I have never been able to have a very close friend in my life, only one.
But now we have kind of stop contacting for awhile.

I really hope he will contact me soon.

I used to have 3 best friends in primary school.

I tried to keep the friendship when we gone to secondary.

With class separations, less contact, in the end, we break apart.

Then, among the 3 best friends, there is still one that I am close with.

Although we spent less time together but I know where he put me in his heart.

Ever since high school ended for us, I don't know where I stand anymore.

We rarely get in touch anymore.

I used to have a great friend, but I destroyed that relation with my own hands.

The first two years it happened, I spent almost everyday thinking about that exact moment.
Thinking, "Why did I do that?", always hoping things can be the same again.

Now, there are some days I will think about this, today is one of those days.

Then there are also 3 female friends that I really cared about.

It's really great and I am grateful that I know them.

They helped me a lot, cheered me up, and being friends with me.

But we almost never met up after high school, maybe few times. But it's been a very long time ago.

It's been almost half a year I have seen any of my close friends.

I really want to meet up, talk about something, or do something.
Maybe a simple "how is your life?" conversation.

Its been a bad day for me.

Having a bad headache for the whole day.

Injured myself when doing some chores.

Unhappy stuff happened.

I just need somebody.

-Mun Chun-

Waiting for the fourth =(

22/12/2012

Free for the whole day, nothing to do.
So, I have been reading novels I bought previously for the whole day.

Stopped reading for quite some time, now that I suddenly have the feeling to start reading again. And I use the advantage of this feeling, read non-stop until I finish a book today.

I bought a book in Taiwan, "Before I go to Sleep".
Read maybe 30% of it and stopped until last few days.

Finished it, and the story is kinda interesting. The ending is well, kinda good and I don't want to be a spoiler.
So, its better for you to read it =)

Then I move on to the next book.

The Rise of Nine, which is the third book of the famous "I am Number Four".

I personally think that the first and second is much better than the third.

Anyhow, it is not a disappointing story. Kinda amazing actually. 

Just that I prefer first and second book more.

Yes, I just finished the book. So now I have got no choice to wait for the fourth book.
"The Return of Lorien". Unfortunately, I'll to wait until next August for the book. =(
But fortunately, there are probably 5 book. Which means I have two more book I can look forward to. =)

Gonna go Comic Fiesta tomorrow ! =D

-Mun Chun-

Armageddon

21/12/2012

What a joke, the end of the world !?
I was watching Jackie Chan's new movie on the 20th midnight until 21st.

Nothing happened at all ! Not even heavy rain, flood, or any disaster.

Didn't receive any bad news from the internet about any bad disaster.
Earthquake, Tsunami, Tornado, and many more. Nothing. Happened.

So, about the Jackie Chan's movie, CZ 12.
The movie is kinda awesome.
Although he is aging already, kinda old now. He still can me great action movies.
All those crazy stuns, moves, and many more. Great guy.
Really like his movies, grew up together with his movies.
Inspire me so much =)

As for today, the doomsday.
I think nobody actually bothered it much.
Most of us are just enjoying the Winter Solstice !

My Facebook page are full of  "Tong Yun".
I had some too, yummy ! =)

As for today, my dear lost her way driving and end up at Kepong.
Hahahas ! NOOB =P , but I admit I am the even more NOOB in road.
I am a totally no direction memory guy. Not proud of it, kinda hate it actually.

Wish I can remember directions better.

So, we end up watching another movie at Brem Mall.
Doesn't really like there, the environment seems kinda dangerous.

There isn't really a choice for us because of time of the movie at Jusco and Tesco.

Therefore, no choice, have to watch there.

Haven't reveal the movie we watched yet, it is Jack Reacher, Tom Cruise's movie.

The movie is nice, some of you might think it is not very nice.

Although there are not as many actions you guys might expect, it is still nice. =)

Now its already 4.00 a.m.
So the doomsday is totally bullsh** !  XD
Forgive my rudeness =O

I spent my doomsday reading "The Rise of Nine"
The third book for "I am Number Four".
Halfway now, damn nice ! Totally recommend this book.
There will be fourth book continuing this story.
Hahas, I kinda hope it never end so fast, hope that there will be 5th and 6th book !

Its kinda late now, so goodnight everyone !
Unfortunately for you, there is no DOOMSDAY !!
Exam still on !  =(

And of course I am kidding about it, I hope there will never be a doomsday.

-Mun Chun- 

My Motivation

05/12/2012

Hehe, lately, most of my post are motivated by my girl to write.
I don't really have the mood to write anything down, empty mind.
But then she said that she likes to read my blog, requested me to update.
So, why not? =)

Last Sunday, three days ago, 02 December 2012, was my best friend birthday ^^
Happy Belated Birthday to you WaiYap. Hahas, although this year don't have present for you, 

wish you had a great and happy one ! Well, its been kinda of awhile since we met.
Hopefully we will meet soon. =)

This week there is two stupid assignment bothering me.
Research Methodology and Measurement.
Sighs, so many assignment for this stupid measurement, its the third one !
Feel like always busy. Advance is really tough.

Sometimes, I think of giving up. Hopefully I won't give up.

Need to get myself up. Pull myself together !
Hope my friends get through this together as well. =)

-Mun Chun-

Empty =/

24/11/2012

Finally, after watching five movies of Twilight.
It ends. Previously, I always look forward to the next movie, but this time there is no more.

The ending is really great, like the final movie very much.

Just that watching it in Malaysia, there are many cut scenes issue.

Kissing scenes got cut ! Fighting scenes got cut !! Everything got cut.

And I thought this movie supposed to be 18 movie, so why still cut everything?!
Come on, we are all adults watching this movie. All of understand what they are doing.

There are no more great movie series that I love to watch now =(
Everything ended, hope a great movie will be on cinema again soon.

Took a test today, its so damn freaking hard.

Looking forward for the make good test.  

Next country, Australia !

-Mun Chun-

Get Get ! Get Your?!

31/10/2012

It's the last day of October ! =)
Hahas, attended the BigBang's concert, fantastic baby !

Although I'm at the most back of the stadium, still is awesome !
It's so fun to be there, definitely worth my RM100, getting a more expensive seat if they come next time.

The songs that I think okay, when they sing it there, it has a totally different feeling~

Hahas, now the song G-Dragon sing kept stuck in my head.
It keeps looping Crayon ! Get Your Crayon !!  x_x

There is one more GD song thats kinda nice, "That XX"

When they Sing "Blue", everyone use their Blue LED as well, so cool !

No, these are not my pictures, probably by someone is bought expensive tickets since its kinda close to them.

Very busy with assignments lately =P
Hope that we'll be able to finish all of them.
Its so bad that most of the assignments fall on the same deadline week.
DAMN YOU ASSIGNMENT'S DATELINE !! 

Currently planning to go to Australia ! =D
Vacation !! WOOHOOOO~~~ ( but next year =P )

-Mun Chun-

A walk

25/10/2012

Had a walk just now, thinking about stuffs.

I feel sad.. really sad.
I've been very unhappy lately.I don't have enough to use..
Wherever I go with my friends, I don't even have enough to order just a cup of drinks..

Just trying to keep the expenses to minimum..

Thought that RM 15 can last longer, it turns up that it can't.
RM 10 for notes, bought a biscuit for you.. and I don't have any left..

But you didn't take it with you, I just wanted to lie to myself that,

you just forgot to take it with you..

I really want to be happy every time we meet,

I don't want us to be like this every time we went back to our home.

I want to go more trip with you.. because, we are really really very happy..

I really want to be with you.. but it might not be the same with you..
Even so, I really understand...

I just want you to know that, I'm really happy to be with you..

How nice if we are to have the rest of our life being together like this..

I'm sorry..

-Mun Chun-

A little luck =)

24/10/2012

Hahas, mom found RM15 in my pocket after she washed the clothes.
Just what I need, money ! =D, maybe RM15 can help me last the month.

Going to Bank later to buy a bank draft for the convocation.
Never really been to a convocation except for the Secondary School Graduation.

Doesn't really feel like a convocation to me because I remember that after it we still
have studies, preparation for the SPM. So, not so convocation feel.

Wonder how this convocation will feel like..
The College really know how to earn money, RM 360 for the convocation.
RM 300 deposit, therefore they earn RM60 per person.

Bad College! =(

-Mun Chun-

Adventure

24/10/2012

Feel like going to an adventure, playing, a trip.

I once saw a quote which kinda mean
Be a traveler, not a tourist.

Hm... I'm not sure which I want to be.
Probably both, guess I'll be hybrid of the both. =)
I want to learn new things, adventure around, the traveler.
And also relax, enjoy the beautiful scenery, the arts of buildings, and many more, the tourist.

I just want to enjoy my life.
If I have a huge amount of money where I don't have to worry about my future for the next 50 years,
I'll surely invest half of em into business, and travel around the world.

Reality kill dreams =(

-Mun Chun-

Singing?

23/10/2012

Today is one of the best day to rest   =)
Slept til noon today, been quite a long time I it.
Always wake early to do something, can't get enough sleep.

Big Bang's concert is just around the corner, Saturday.
Until now, I haven't seen the ticket yet.

KahYeng might be having troubles with reaching in time,

don't worry bout it too much, I'll pray that you reach in time C:

Last Saturday been to LowYat to Sing-K.
Don't really like to sing because my singing sucks. =(
Sometimes, I hope that I can sing better, but being tone deaf is really hard.
I even found an article for it, but mine is not the serious one.

It's really very hard for me to sing. =/

Furthermore, being a banana, can't sing Chinese songs unless I know the lyrics very well.
Now I know why I have never been to sing-k with friends from my secondary school.
Because most of them don't know how to sing Chinese songs.
Banana peoples sings very lousy I guess. =P

Samsung Note II , RM 2299. Good phone, but kinda expensive.
No, I am not planning to buy a phone. I'll probably buy it if I don't own one.
But now when I'm using an Android phone, it doesn't really makes much different to me.
Mine is good enough to use, able to play games and do what a good phone does.

Just that with RM 2299, I will be able to buy a desktop.
Wanted to buy one for a very long time, financial problem. Doesn't have money left for me.
Beautiful technologies, requires high digits.   x.x

-Mun Chun-

Sweet face =)

19/10/2012

Hello everyone =)
Did a long working hour on an assignment yesterday,

but found out that it is actually just almost five minutes of work.
Maybe maximum half an hour job, stupid Construction Research Methodology subject !
Wasted my time. So stress about it but its just a simple job.

Forget it for now~
Lately been watching Prison Break. Watching season 2 now.
This series is quite okay, brilliant mind, just that maybe its a little too slow.
Then the weekly animated series which is very famous now, Sword Art Online.
Love watching it, its an once a long time great anime. =)

Been watching Big Bang Theory as well, Sheldon is so so funny =D
Laughed every episode in it.
No, Big Bang Korea singer is not in it, this is an America Series. -__-'

My dear =) , don't be unhappy or angry T^T
Because you have the sweetest face when you smile =)

She is so cute right? =) , she likes chicken. So weird =/

-Mun Chun-

I know..

14/10/2012

Today's valentine day is actually Wine Day..
I want to write, but my love one is not reading anymore.

-Mun Chun-

Double Choco

12/10/2012

Back from a drinking tea section at Desa Park City.
Coffee bean, ordered an Ice Blended Double Chocolate.
It was extremely over sweet, I added two cup of cold water to it and it still taste sweet.
It makes me so full. =O

While Facebook-ing, came across with a horoscope thing,

AUGUST BABY
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of “that someone”. Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by “no pain no gain” caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

 It seems quite true, sounds like me. =)
Hahas, I like the part VERY revengeful, I think sometimes I am.
Depending on who and what the person did.
I also like the part "No pain, No gain".

Tomorrow going to run the NIKE RUN, top 100 can get a medal.
But I probably can't make it, everyone run too fast, too many serious runner.
Maybe I'll  try for it, but 95% going to fail. xD

Update after the run, Goodbye all =)

-Mun Chun-

Tidy :)

11/10/2012

I realized ever since I bought my hard disk ( Yup, bought it from Taiwan and love it !),
I keen to keep my table clean, neat, tidy, in a nutshell, organized.
Have a great satisfaction whenever I look at my table and of course my room too.
Maybe it need a little or two magic work on the decoration, but others are okay.

Still haven't think of what to put at the newly renovated area.
My room got renovated to bigger, there is no more balcony, it became part of my room now.
So I don't know what to do with the extra space. First I thought about hanging a sand bag there,
now I'm not sure about it, it seems quite expensive to do it.
Currently don't have any idea what to put there, guess I'll just leave it there for now.

Saw some nice Nike and Adidas slipper yesterday at Festival City.
But it cost RM69, so expensive. =(
Insufficient money to use for this month T^T, guess I'll have to wait  for next month.
Recently I found out that amazingly, Proton Iswara can pump RM70 to full tank.
RM70 in Proton Iswara can last me about 15 days, quite good eh?
It means I only need around RM140 for a month. =)

Cool huh? Goodnight everyone :)

-Mun Chun-

Adv Diploma

10/10/2012

Its been quite a long time I didn't update my blog.
Seems like there are quite many changes has been made.
Now the page for typing the blog seems like an A4.
Hahas, feels like typing in Microsoft Word, wonder its a good or bad thing.

Just finished a movie together with my beloved dear  ^^
We watched Taken 2 at KL Festival City, the movie is great :)

Kinda like Liam Neeson movies, there are just something about his movies.

Thinking about it, the last movie we watched together is during in Taiwan,

I think this movie is not in Malaysia yet, although I didn't watch the drama series,
I still think that this movie is very worth to watch it and its really nice.
So when its out, I recommend it. C=

Life in Advance is kinda hard, harder than Diploma.
Well, it is expected, just maybe I'm not ready for it yet.
There are many assignments, 2 full coursework this semester.
Hope that I'll make it through. 

Now that because there are a lots of people now furthering their studies,

the slots for Groups changed, quite many of the Diploma Group C mates
got changed to Group B, whereby D to C.
Feel kinda sucks, the group now is not as united as before. =(

Oh yea, in a nutshell, I have graduated my diploma. The result is quite good,
nope, not telling the CGPA unless you text me for it and you're my close friend. 

Having the convocation, have to for quite some time, TAR College style? 

Well I guess that's it for now. Don't worry, will update soon again. =)
I promise.
Goodnight all~

-Mun Chun-

Skinny Love

Come on skinny love just last the year

*He's just begging for the relationship to last a little longer. He knows it won't work out because she can't nurture the love, so he's just begging that it last long enough so that he can prepare himself for the inevitable breakup.


Pour a little salt we were never here
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

**They just had a big fight and he;s just asking to pretend it never happened. Just pour salt to help the wound heal, and pretend they were never there fighting. Then he starts surveying that damage done in the relationship."Crushed Veneer", the relationship was/has just been crushed.


I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall

****He knows the break is going to happen so he's trying tell himself to cut off his emotions and fall out of love so it won't hurt as bad.

Right in this moment this order's tall

***A tall order is another way of saying you are asking too much out of something. As much as he want's to cut his emotions, he know's it's not a feat he can accomplish. He loved her too much and knows he can't just fall out of love right on the spot.

And I told you to be patient
And told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind

***These are the things he's been asking his love to do, and if she would just do them, the relationship would've lived and been perfect. Notice in this instance, kind means her just being nice to him, but then...

In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"

****He knows when he wakes up the next morning with her, everything will be different. He'll be with her, but it will be a different "kind" of being with her. In other words, he'll be physically next to her, but not as a couple. Also it means that she will be kind to him, but not in a loving way, but more of a kindness that comes out of pity, because she is trying to let him down easy.

I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

***As someone else said, basically he's holding all the memories and punishments for the relationship, while she makes out like a bandit with the fine money so to speak. In other words, he left feeling shitty about what has happened, while she wont care as much and sees the break as getting her freedom back.


Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere

***He's just pleading with his love to feed off whatever little hope there is left in the relationship. He's pleading with his love to just stay with him a little longer and just hope she will love him more.

Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

**Sullen means kinda like beat up and moving slow. So I think that's the skinny, malnourished love they had. They aren't breaking up in some passionate way, its just that the love is dying slowly, hence, slow on the splt (up).

And now all your love is wasted?
And then who the hell was I?

****He's saying that if the breakup happens, any love she managed to have for him is wasted. He feels like her love was all that ever mattered, and that anything good he felt about himself was because of that great feeling being loved gives you, so he defined himself through her love and the relationship. As a result, if her love was just a big waste, what does that make him?


And now I'm breaking at the britches

***He's falling apart now. 

And at the end of all your lines

***There will be no one to take him any further.

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?

***Now he's just wondering who will love her and fight for her as hard as he was willing to, and he believes that most of the men she will date will just fall behind in deserving her love.


(The meaning translation are not fully by me, taken from a site)

-Mun Chun-