Need and Want

05/07/2013

We all have things we want to have, but it is not necessary.

It is not a need.

Lately, I have been looking a lot of things that I want to have.
I am not sure why, maybe I'm one of those people who buy things when they are unhappy?

I just look at things, it makes me think, if dad is here, maybe I can ask for it.

Every time after the window shopping, I feel quite sad because, dad is not here anymore.
And I can't afford to have it.

Why does this happen, I just can't bear it anymore.

I want to celebrate my 21 just like others did.

I just want you back, Dad.

-Mun Chun-

Life

26/06/2013

It's has been a very very long time I have stop posting.

I think, most of my friends know what happened in my life lately.

It happened so sudden, I really felt so lost lately.

Sometimes in the middle of the night when I go downstairs, he will be there.
Opening the gate, coming in. And he will ask, Why aren't you asleep yet?
I will probably answer him "soon" most of the time.

It felt like a piece of my heart is missing, empty, void. Unable to fill it up, replace it.

Sometimes, I really hope that when I go down, he will be there sitting on the sofa, watching tv.
But he always fall asleep while the tv is still on. And I will wake him up.
Ask him to go to the room to sleep.

They say, people forget 90% of their dreams. When I wake, I almost forget everything.
But I force myself to think back the dream I had two weeks ago.

We were all in the living room, one family together.

 Although it's not special but we were all chatting and laughing together.
It felt so real, that when I wake, I thought he was still downstairs waiting for me to go down.

To go out for lunch together.

My heart felt so heartbroken, when I realize, it is all just a dream.

2 weeks ago when it's Father's Day.
Previously, I never bought any gifts, or anything specials to him before.

I really regret that I never expressed my love towards him before.

I just want him to know that, I really love him.

I know, that he knows.

And I know that, he loves me a lot although he always scold me.
Hey, which dad don't scold their sons ?

My friends, tell your dad that you love him although they always scold you.
They just wants the best for you.

On the last day when he is still conscious in the hospital, I hold his hand,

he tightened his hand, holding mine.
Felt like he was giving me comfort, telling me that everything will be okay.

I never felt so scared in my life before.

My hands kept shaking like it's not my hand.

I tried very hard to cheer myself up, to be strong.

But not tonight, I just want to.. not try hard.

He is a man with greatness.

If his live is longer, he will be able to achieve even more.
Easy life for maybe even the next family's generations.

As he is planing to do so much more business.

He is a man with everything.

He is successful, a big project, finally a Main Contractor.

Went to few country, the latest one, Australia.

A beautiful family, a gorgeous wife, a son, and a daughter.

Most important of all, I'm proud to be your son.

Things that you have not done, I will do it.

Dad, I hope that you had a happy life.

I always planned to buy you a massage chair when I grow up.

To be a good son, taking mom and dad out for breakfast.

Watching dad grow even older, living happily together.

But all these can't be accomplished anymore.

Hope that dad passed away peacefully, rest in peace.

I will tell your story to my sons, and so on to the next generations.

I remember when I am 13 years old, I wrote my dad as my idol.

Dad, you're my hero.

I Love You Dad, Goodnight.

Confession

19/01/2013

Its my friend's wedding dinner today.

Congratulations to my friend and wish them to have a happy ever after =)

But then I was kinda unhappy that I am not invited.

Feel like my friends are getting further away from me.

I have never been able to have a very close friend in my life, only one.
But now we have kind of stop contacting for awhile.

I really hope he will contact me soon.

I used to have 3 best friends in primary school.

I tried to keep the friendship when we gone to secondary.

With class separations, less contact, in the end, we break apart.

Then, among the 3 best friends, there is still one that I am close with.

Although we spent less time together but I know where he put me in his heart.

Ever since high school ended for us, I don't know where I stand anymore.

We rarely get in touch anymore.

I used to have a great friend, but I destroyed that relation with my own hands.

The first two years it happened, I spent almost everyday thinking about that exact moment.
Thinking, "Why did I do that?", always hoping things can be the same again.

Now, there are some days I will think about this, today is one of those days.

Then there are also 3 female friends that I really cared about.

It's really great and I am grateful that I know them.

They helped me a lot, cheered me up, and being friends with me.

But we almost never met up after high school, maybe few times. But it's been a very long time ago.

It's been almost half a year I have seen any of my close friends.

I really want to meet up, talk about something, or do something.
Maybe a simple "how is your life?" conversation.

Its been a bad day for me.

Having a bad headache for the whole day.

Injured myself when doing some chores.

Unhappy stuff happened.

I just need somebody.

-Mun Chun-

Waiting for the fourth =(

22/12/2012

Free for the whole day, nothing to do.
So, I have been reading novels I bought previously for the whole day.

Stopped reading for quite some time, now that I suddenly have the feeling to start reading again. And I use the advantage of this feeling, read non-stop until I finish a book today.

I bought a book in Taiwan, "Before I go to Sleep".
Read maybe 30% of it and stopped until last few days.

Finished it, and the story is kinda interesting. The ending is well, kinda good and I don't want to be a spoiler.
So, its better for you to read it =)

Then I move on to the next book.

The Rise of Nine, which is the third book of the famous "I am Number Four".

I personally think that the first and second is much better than the third.

Anyhow, it is not a disappointing story. Kinda amazing actually. 

Just that I prefer first and second book more.

Yes, I just finished the book. So now I have got no choice to wait for the fourth book.
"The Return of Lorien". Unfortunately, I'll to wait until next August for the book. =(
But fortunately, there are probably 5 book. Which means I have two more book I can look forward to. =)

Gonna go Comic Fiesta tomorrow ! =D

-Mun Chun-

Armageddon

21/12/2012

What a joke, the end of the world !?
I was watching Jackie Chan's new movie on the 20th midnight until 21st.

Nothing happened at all ! Not even heavy rain, flood, or any disaster.

Didn't receive any bad news from the internet about any bad disaster.
Earthquake, Tsunami, Tornado, and many more. Nothing. Happened.

So, about the Jackie Chan's movie, CZ 12.
The movie is kinda awesome.
Although he is aging already, kinda old now. He still can me great action movies.
All those crazy stuns, moves, and many more. Great guy.
Really like his movies, grew up together with his movies.
Inspire me so much =)

As for today, the doomsday.
I think nobody actually bothered it much.
Most of us are just enjoying the Winter Solstice !

My Facebook page are full of  "Tong Yun".
I had some too, yummy ! =)

As for today, my dear lost her way driving and end up at Kepong.
Hahahas ! NOOB =P , but I admit I am the even more NOOB in road.
I am a totally no direction memory guy. Not proud of it, kinda hate it actually.

Wish I can remember directions better.

So, we end up watching another movie at Brem Mall.
Doesn't really like there, the environment seems kinda dangerous.

There isn't really a choice for us because of time of the movie at Jusco and Tesco.

Therefore, no choice, have to watch there.

Haven't reveal the movie we watched yet, it is Jack Reacher, Tom Cruise's movie.

The movie is nice, some of you might think it is not very nice.

Although there are not as many actions you guys might expect, it is still nice. =)

Now its already 4.00 a.m.
So the doomsday is totally bullsh** !  XD
Forgive my rudeness =O

I spent my doomsday reading "The Rise of Nine"
The third book for "I am Number Four".
Halfway now, damn nice ! Totally recommend this book.
There will be fourth book continuing this story.
Hahas, I kinda hope it never end so fast, hope that there will be 5th and 6th book !

Its kinda late now, so goodnight everyone !
Unfortunately for you, there is no DOOMSDAY !!
Exam still on !  =(

And of course I am kidding about it, I hope there will never be a doomsday.

-Mun Chun-